Friday, March 27, 2009

Fake It, We're All Face

It keeps occurring to me that all this is just a face. A mask I put on in order to stick out in the crowd. I know, we all do it, but still. It just seems weird that I do all this just to be unique. I mean, the weird spurts in the middle of conversations, the stupid comparisons and the corny gags are all just fluff. People call me random, yet I shrug it off, saying I'm perfectly normal, because I think to be merely 'random' is... uncool. Ugh. So I vehemently deny being anything but a normal person, saying normal things. See, I think that sets me apart from all the other people claiming to be all 'insanely random ramblers'. Yes I know my blog title has insane in it too. I just don't want to be bunched with the people who lick railway tracks just because it 'called out to them'.

I'm spontaneous dammit, not stupid.
But even I go for looking cool.

But what I'm getting at is, more or less the whole of me is just one face of who I really am. It's like this paper mask. It has been formed by everything I've read, heard, played and seen. It's a collage of everything that came into contact with me. And strictly controlled by what _I_ think is, again, 'cool'. Which is sometimes confusing because my definition of cool changes pretty quick. Like Sabby once said, it's hard to tell the difference between me and a fake :P

Not that I'm going for a goth-ish image or anything, just something different. As are all of us. Don't deny it, don't try to fight ittt just deal with it, it's just part of [something]... Setting aside lyrics of an entire _song_ detailing how they don't care, you all change how you are perceived by others all the time. Everyone wants to make a good impression. Even if it's by pretending to not care about making a good impression. The word hypocrite can't be used as an insult anymore because we all are anyway. It's like calling a person human! But you know what? I like it this way. You all do it! You cannot possibly refuse that fact that you change for others, and any self-righteous 'I-don't-give-a-damn-about-the-world' cows can shove it. I moderate comments with an iron fist! Ha!

You know the really weird thing? I think writing this post about being fake sets me apart and makes me less fake.

Even weirder is that writing that line gives me the impression that I'm that much cooler for it.

And so on and on it goes...



*making a new label; "wise-ass"
:P

10 comments:

Gehan said...

....

i honestly didnt understand this.. sorry :(

so do u act random cos u wanna be different, or cos u wanna be normal...?

k, i dnt get it..

Anonymous said...

As a first time reader of your blog, all i see is a guy trying to look cool, and 'different' by writing stuff like this. Of course we all fake things, we all have different masks for different occasions. But it's all a part of who we are. Those are OUR masks. Just cuz we use different ones at different times doesn't make them any less ours.

Iron fist me all you want. As I am behind the mask of anonymity, i don't mind =)

messiahofmadness said...

Stating the obvious now, are we? =P

I'm treating John to doughnuts tomorrow for his bday. You should come too! Er...but you'll have to get your own coz it's not your bday =P Tough!

Sabby said...

What the hell was this about? I always knew it was fake but you were faking it to be normal?
Heh?

And I ain't anon, mister. I don't need to be anon to say what I need to YOU! =D

queenofdreams said...

Iron Fist eh?

Just try it, If Sirasa can sue Mervyn Silva, I am sure I can sue you too :)

Serendib_Isle said...

ROFL.
I can’t make head or tail of this one, and I’m not going to read twice either. You are NOT normal. There, I said it. Sue me. :p

Serendib_Isle said...

Hey Jerry, On a completely different note, you have been tagged:

http://wijitha.blogspot.com/2009/03/12-simple-sins.html

mixedblessings89 said...

can't make out up from down with this... but it's pretty crazy, which kinda sorta equates to pretty fun, which is kinda sorta like cool.

:D

hijinx said...

Why does no one get this? It makes perfect sense to me. Though there's no way I'd be caught being fake ;)

Jerry said...

@Gehan
nevermind...
:P

@Anon
"As a first time reader of your blog, all i see is a guy trying to look cool, and 'different' by writing stuff like this."
EXACTLY! Good on you for seeing the point of the whole thing, Sherlock.

@mom
...

@Sabby
Okay okay it's not you. :P

@qod
Try it, female.


@SI
Cool! That's what I want to be.
:D

@SI
Next post will be zat!

@mb
Ya, me kuhl.
:D

@jinx
I know, what's so warped about it? :s